Venting Dreams

I wanted to share a bit for the sake of helping people understand, as it is easy to be confused. Venting dreams are dreams where an old belief or emotion is re-organized or released. They are often the ones where we experience the difficult emotion and fear that it is a sign of the present - when, actually, we are experiencing the difficult emotion for the sake of itsrelease. This concept reveals an important distinction in general - that what is experienced in the present is sometimes a release of the past. However, if we interpret it as being a sign of the present, we can react from it from the same old patterns and accidentally create the conditions for the belief or the emotion all over again. If, on the other hand, we can see it as the potential for it clearing out, it is a sign that we are on the path of healing. 

I wanted to share a bit for the sake of helping people understand, as it is easy to be confused. Venting dreams are dreams where an old belief or emotion is re-organized or released. They are often the ones where we experience the difficult emotion and fear that it is a sign of the present - when, actually, we are experiencing the difficult emotion for the sake of itsrelease. This concept reveals an important distinction in general - that what is experienced in the present is sometimes a release of the past. However, if we interpret it as being a sign of the present, we can react from it from the same old patterns and accidentally create the conditions for the belief or the emotion all over again. If, on the other hand, we can see it as the potential for it clearing out, it is a sign that we are on the path of healing. 

The present is, in many ways, like the light from a distant star. A light that was set in motion long ago. Like I said above, we make this error in many ways, maybe the dream is a subtle one. For example, we take on an exercise regimen and feel sore the next day and blame the exercise (rather than the state of not moving in the past) and say, "this is not working! this is not good for me". Even more so: we take on a cleanse, and crap comes to the surface. Even more so we say, "this is not working! this is not good for me" - we attribute discomfort in the present TO whatever is happening in the present, rather than seeing that perhaps we had been carrying around this crap all along, and this is the sign of it leaving. In any of these cases, the natural response is to shut it down. Some desire for things to just keep going along as they were. Same for Karma as well. It is learning to see the right kind of difficulty as the release of difficulty that lets us start to see suffering as grace. 

You can probably stop reading there, or I will give you a bit detail, not to be too personal, but so that you can see the arch of release, and the time it sometimes takes. I had a venting dream last night that seemed to be a bench mark in a process of healing I've been in for more than a year. The venting dream that I remember marking the deeper beginning of this process happened last August (incidentally, both at times when I was away from home for a few days...which is the only time I seem to have the psychic space to dream deep dreams). The one back in August - I had started to go deeper into my subconscious work and a lot of anxiety and tears had come up. So much that it scared people more than it scared me. That dream made it clear that what was asking to clear was Shame. That is easy to say, but gives no road map of how to proceed and what is the result, but I knew that was what it was - the dream showed me and it felt so right. 

In the year that has happened since then, I cannot tell you the things that have unfolded. Things I never thought could possibly happen. You can just begin to guess at them, if you can guess at what it would take for some shame to be relieved and self-love to be began. Some other forgivenesses as well. Some new practices. Some imperceivable breakthroughs. A lot of being at the right place at the right time. And not being in the wrong place. 

This can illustrate the mismatch - an old subconscious formed of repeated experiences of shame & humiliation, and now a subtly growing new understanding that an even deeper part of me knew did not match. That, day by day matched less - the old implicit memories and the new present tense. This past week, to an amazing degree. More good than I ever felt possible, and then an event of kindness yesterday that broke off a big piece of who I used to be. 

I was out of town with my family. And last night - in the early morning of today - I had a dream (it was followed by 2 more as well). But this one: 
I was being told I was "shameful". It built up in an experience that felt so much like everyday of my past. The intensity grew until I owed the experience of being shamed, but stood up to the idea that that was me. I said, "I have been shamed, I have been ashamed. But I am not shameful". 

I tell you this to explain the point - that dream was followed by another one of a subtler emotion, and then a dance. When I woke up, I have the taste of shame in my heart. I know it, because I knew it well. But I also knew enough to see the power of the experience as something that was being released. Something revised. And especially in the way that I responded in the dream. Though the old feels so powerful and has taken up more time, the task was to see it as release. 

And I know that the process continues to unfold.

Though this sounds like a personal story, I say it for the sake of sharing and also for the sake of you maybe seeing your own cleanse in a different way. What Is Being Released?